That isn't true.

[ this answer firms something in his eyes; it isn't anger or indignation, but some deepening of grief. ]

You have your life. You have the lives of those beside you-- the memories of those you loved, and who loved you in return. You have everyone who will love you still, even if you keep down this path you've chosen.

The reason... matters. You matter. And there is always more to lose if you gamble like this.