[ it would be nice if that were true. dextera wants to believe it—he would, if not for too many factors holding him back. he’s confided this only in a few people, but himeka deserves to know why he resists.

he shakes his head. ]

I… I don’t have any memories. I’m afraid that if I become someone new, I’ll lose who I once was. So I have to…

[ … ]

I have to stay as I am.