That's the heart of it, isn't it? As easy as it was for you to act, you still feel like something isn't quite right, you're also aware enough of that oddity to talk about it. [Is it clearer, if she puts it that way?] It's not the same as riding a bike or swimming, practicing muscle memory innate and natural to you.

[She finally takes her eyes off him, and takes another sip of her own cup. Putting it back down after a short pause, she gives a quiet exhale before continuing.]

That's logical, too. Hurting others is not [should not be] comparable. For those who don't take enjoyment in others' suffering, doing work that enables it boils down to a matter of necessity.

[...]

Did you thought of that, that what you were doing is necessary?

[Did he think at all?]