[ Although Howl knows that Emet-Selch might not realize how literal Howl's words are here, it's a 'not yet' either way. The feathers on his body that won't go away... they're just feathers, ultimately. He won't even stand out in Achamoth with these slight physical changes. And as worried as he is about his own psyche feeling so off, he can't put his finger on whatever that thing might be. How severe could it be at this point, if he can't even say whether something is truly "wrong" with him?
Something akin to a sigh transfers through their communion. Talking about this has helped him collect his thoughts to some small degree, at least. ]
The woman I killed was a sorceress. A mage not unlike the dozens and dozens of wizards I batted out of the sky in my own world, with no regard for their lives. The war we're fighting here is far more grand and all-encompassing than that war...
If I was willing to kill my own kind to stop the war in my world, I can kill my own kind here.
[ The logic is unassailable. Going over it again does help to put him at ease, but it can't shake the feeling of something being wrong now. Something having changed in him. ]
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[ Although Howl knows that Emet-Selch might not realize how literal Howl's words are here, it's a 'not yet' either way. The feathers on his body that won't go away... they're just feathers, ultimately. He won't even stand out in Achamoth with these slight physical changes. And as worried as he is about his own psyche feeling so off, he can't put his finger on whatever that thing might be. How severe could it be at this point, if he can't even say whether something is truly "wrong" with him?
Something akin to a sigh transfers through their communion. Talking about this has helped him collect his thoughts to some small degree, at least. ]
The woman I killed was a sorceress. A mage not unlike the dozens and dozens of wizards I batted out of the sky in my own world, with no regard for their lives. The war we're fighting here is far more grand and all-encompassing than that war...
If I was willing to kill my own kind to stop the war in my world, I can kill my own kind here.
[ The logic is unassailable. Going over it again does help to put him at ease, but it can't shake the feeling of something being wrong now. Something having changed in him. ]